Open letter
I know you're not abandonning me... I don't know, it's just the way you live your life without me.
Honey, I'm longing to find my path... It's just like I don't have a destiny anymore. Like my life is too much mine. I don't know what to do with it. I have to try not to repeat the mistakes of the past, I know that. But what else is to do ?
I feel so bored of everything. Like I don't have the strength to find something interresting to do. I feel not enough. I don't want to die or so like before, no worries. I pretty much wanna live though. I wanna live so much, honey. Maybe it's the problem.
Maybe I wanna live so many things I don't know what to begin with... Is it so ?
Am I afraid to live ?
I guess what happend before left unanswered questions.
I'm not sure I'm doing that well anymore...
I know I'm not happy, I'm not asking that much. But I wonder how I feel.
Empty...?
Don't know though.
I guess I didn't go over it eventually.
And it feels so bad...
I thought I was saved.
Wondering how wrong I was.
I have to work it out. I have to go over it, I have to recover.
I longing of healing, you know ?
I'd like to be a smiling party girl instead of a lonely lonely girl...
Please Honey, tell me I'll do it.